resurgence
In one night, I decimated my enemy's entire family.
However, I overlooked the little boy hidden in the water tank.
Years later, he became a ruthless regent and dug up the ground to find me.
He tortured me by all means. I couldn't bear the humiliation and took poison to kill myself.
Before I died, I saw a few big words written on his head: po text male lead.
I finally realized that I am a po article heroine, even if I awakened, I can not change the fate of being humiliated ......
1
I was reborn.
When I opened my eyes, the limbs and broken arms all over the ground came into my eyes.
The full moon was high in the sky, and the cold moonlight illuminated the blood-soaked ground.
Everything was hinting that I had returned to the night I slaughtered my enemy's family.
My entire family died tragically due to the framing of my enemies, and only I escaped by recuperating from my injuries in the Medicine King Valley.
I joined the assassin organization and hibernated for years, waiting for tonight to avenge my family's death.
Last time, I missed the little boy and ended up making a big mistake.
Since the heavens have given me a chance to start over, I must not make the same mistake this time.
I went straight to the water tank, lifted the half-covered lid, and wrung up the wet little boy.
He was 8 years old, weak and powerless.
He stared at me, hatred burning in his eyes.
He had witnessed what I had done.
I touched his face and laughed fiercely, “Jiang Jinnian, cut the grass to get rid of the roots, you taught me that!”
After saying that, I wiped his neck without hesitation.
Only after confirming that he was dead through and through did I throw his corpse back into the water tank and sail away.
I didn't understand the meaning of the words I saw before I died.
Who cares what po text male lead, just kill it!
2
Ten years later, I was caught by him again.
He was still the Regent, powerful and ruthless.
He put me in a dungeon, and all kinds of tortures were waiting for me.
I was puzzled: “Didn't I kill you back then?”
His eyes looked like they were hardened with poison: “What you killed was my servant boy. In order to attract your attention, he put on my clothes and hid in the water tank, purposely making a noise for you to discover. I, on the other hand, hid in a bookcase in my room and saw how you killed him.”
He personally tortured me, “Shen Gardenia Yi, I will let you know what hell on earth is!”
A whip dipped in chili water, burning candles, a red-hot branding iron.
I've seen it all before.
He lashed me whip after whip, the bright red branding iron pressed into me.
I fainted from the pain and died, and he woke me up again by splashing me with cold water, torturing me day and night without end.
He hanged me with ginseng soup to nurse me back to health and then continued the torture.
He wanted to make me afraid, to make me repent for what I did ten years ago, he asked me over and over again, “Shen Gardenia Yi, do you regret killing my whole family?”
“Come closer and I'll tell you.” I hooked the corners of my mouth.
He came closer to me and I spat a mouthful of blood at him, scoffing, ''The only thing I regret is that I didn't kill you to reunite you with your family!''
He burst into a rage and smacked me hard.
I passed out.
In a daze, I heard him say, “Torture can only hurt her body, but it can't damage her personality. This king will destroy her completely!”
Fuck, I know exactly what awaits me next.
He was going to break my bones and then throw me to the Cave of Souls to be trampled on by thousands of people.
Then he didn't think it was enough and did it himself.
As proud as I was, I couldn't take the humiliation and finally took poison to kill myself.
But he didn't know that this time I was prepared.
Not waiting for the dungeon guards to take me away, I bit through the poison in my teeth.
The sharp pain hit me and I vomited blood all over the place.
Before I died I saw a string of words flying over his head again: po text male lead.
I asked in my mind: [If he is the male lead, then what am I?
A voice replied coldly: “po Wen female main character.”
3
I was reborn for the second time.
Time went back ten years to the night when I killed my enemy's whole family.
This time I was more careful.
I found the child in the water tank and killed it, and then I found the child in the cupboard and killed it.
I turned my enemy's house upside down and found five children and killed them all.
Ensuring that nothing was left out, I breathed a sigh of relief.
Jiang Jinnian, you finally let me kill you!
I left the enemy's house full of corpses with satisfaction, and began ten years of fastidious life in the jianghu.
Time flies like an arrow, and soon came ten years later.
This day, I as usual general chivalry, store door suddenly broke in a man.
I fixed my eyes on him, why did he look so much like Jiang Jinnian?
Although I was a strong martial artist, I was no match for him, and after a few dozen moves, I lost the upper hand.
Before I could escape, I was caught by him.
Terrified as I was, I learned my lesson and asked him warily, “Who are you?”
He cupped my jaw and almost crushed my bones, “The ghost who demands life!”
He carried me on his shoulders and ran at a speed that surpassed human speed.
He ran into a deep mountain, got into a cave, and locked me up.
This time the plot seemed different from the previous two.
“You will pay for what you have done!” He bit my neck like a crazed beast.
I was gnawing blood and still sneered at him, “Jiang Jinnian, kill me if you can!”
He spat out a mouthful of blood and laughed coldly, ''I won't let you die easily. Shen Gardenia Yi, you killed my whole family, I will make your life worse than death.''
He imprisoned me in the cave, starved me, abused me, and I was emotionally stable after dying twice.
The only one in the cave who went crazy was him.
One day, I finally realized why he was like a wild animal.
On the night of the full moon, I saw with my own eyes that he had grown a dog's head.
My eyes got rounder and rounder, finally revealing a look of horror.
He had been discovered by me as a secret, as if he had been torn away from his most secret covering, an expression of indignation appeared on the dog's face, and the color of blood surfaced in the dog's eyes.
“Shen Gardenia Yi, do you know what I have been through? Do you know how I came through these ten years?”
He tore open his clothes, revealing the skin on his chest.
That skin didn't look like human skin, it was more like ...... dog skin?
He actually turned into a dog demon!
The night I killed him, his soul actually possessed the dog he kept at home.
He went crazy, he was broken, and he wanted to die.
It was the belief in revenge that sustained him. He endured humiliation and practiced for ten years, finally turning into human form and finding me.
A dog demon's body pressed against me, and he found the perfect means to get back at me.
What kind of fucking story is this, with a metaphysical plot?
I was literally dogeared!
Before I died, I asked the voice from beyond the sky, why did they create a world with such epilepsy?
The voice, which was neither male nor female, drifted from afar, “Everything is the ‘Tao’ of this world. All people are mole crickets, including male and female masters. If I want you to die, you must die.”
4
The third time I was reborn, I returned to the eve of my revenge.
This time I was well prepared.
I killed everyone in my enemy's house and found out the children who were hiding.
Then I killed all the cats and dogs in the house, and slaughtered the chickens, ducks and fish.
I didn't even spare the eggs in the kitchen, shaking the yolks loose before giving up.
I also boiled hot water and poured it into the ants' nest.
I poisoned the rats with medicine.
I cut earthworms in half vertically.
I shot all the birds in the trees.
Thinking that everything has a spirit, flowers and plants can't be spared anything, so I set a fire and burned Jiang Jinnian's house to ashes.
After all this, I let the two groups of monks and Taoist priests I invited to perform magic to eliminate the spirits here.
I don't believe that Jiang Jinnian can still live after this.
But with the previous lesson, this time I don't dare to live in a dignified manner.
I lived incognito in a remote village, so that even if Jiang Jinnian lived, it would be difficult for him to find me.
As it turned out, I was still too naive, and ten years later, an army drove to the village and easily captured me.
The soldiers escorted me into the palace, where I saw Jiang Jinnian again.
He looked completely different, but I recognized him as soon as I looked into his hate-filled eyes.
Jiang Jinnian had actually been reborn into the royal family and had even become the emperor.
He looked at me condescendingly, “Unbelievable, Shen Jasmine Yi.”
I really can't imagine!
I was ready to take the poison to kill myself, he took a quick step and pinched my jaw and took out the medicine in my teeth.
“I won't let you die, I'll only make your life worse than death!”
Jiang Jinnian you dead pervert!
I laughed mockingly, “Every day I live I think about how to kill your whole family! You're angry, kill me if you're angry!”
But he wasn't irritated. He said slowly, “Coincidentally, every day I live, I think about how to find you! And then destroy you!”
Fearing that I would die too soon, he removed all my equipment, including my clothes.
He broke the tendons of my arms and legs and locked me up by his side.
When I scolded him, he ignored me.
When I didn't eat or drink, he poured it into me himself.
The dead eunuch fanned the flames next to him, “Your Majesty, the late emperor dealt with disobedient matrons by chaining their limbs to the getaway frame, and it was ...... convenient to go up and down from side to side.”
The main idea came out very well, don t come out next time.
The dog emperor really listened to it, and the top of the top does not stop, more than one round.
The ladies in the palace thought I was the emperor s new favorite, and the emperor was playing some new game.
Jealousy makes them face, they secretly looking for someone to give me poison.
I begged for it and smoothly ga.
The moment I closed my eyes, I heard the voice from beyond the sky say excitedly, “Busted, busted, I'm rich! Need more exciting episodes.”
So the god in the sky can be greedy for money too?
5
Reborn for the fourth time, I thought a lot.
I'm a mole cricket, but mole crickets also want to find a way to live.
Perhaps by killing Jiang Jinnian, I had instead given him a chance to upgrade.
In the fourth round, I pretended that I didn't see him in the water tank and raised my head.
The young Jiang Jinnian trembled as he rose from the water tank and threw himself directly at his relatives.
I followed him, and when I saw which family he had gone to, I destroyed them.
He went to seven or eight families, and I killed almost all of the nine clans of the Jiang family.
Then I blinded his eyes, broke his tendons and bones, and made him an invalid.
Only after all this was done was I satisfied and left.
From then on, he was an orphan with no support, no resources, no connections, no strong body, I was no longer afraid of him turning over a new leaf.
Isn't this safer than killing him to trigger a metaphysical plot?
I still do not dare to take the enemy lightly, find a good mountain and water seclusion.
Ten years later on a rainy night, someone knocked on my door.
It is reasonable to say that I live in the mountains, and I don't see many people all year round.
Whoever came to my house on a rainy night must not be an ordinary person.
I held my breath and quietly looked through the doorway.
The man in the robe was soaked to the skin and his face was in the shadows, so I couldn't see him clearly.
“Monk, I'm passing by here and I suddenly encountered heavy rain, can I ask you to stay for the night?”
Seeing that I didn't respond, he added, “A woodshop is also fine.”
After a long time, he said, “Monk, I heard you right behind the door.”
I was startled.
“Your mind is in turmoil. Don't be afraid, the monk is blind, so he has good ears, and the monk is not a bad person.”
I clamped my throat and said, “It is inconvenient for me to live here as a woman, please find another place to stay, Little Master.”
He turned around and walked into the rain.
I patted my chest and before I could breathe a sigh of relief, he swiftly turned back and smashed the door with a slap.
The door panel shattered and I fell to the ground spitting blood.
There was thunder and lightning outside, and the lightning illuminated his face.
It was a cool and ascetic face, with delicate sculpted features, but his eyes were blind.
In fact, I had already guessed that this monk was Jiang Jinnian.
I hadn't even exchanged a few moves with him before I lost.
His internal force is majestic and domineering, I am no match at all.
“Monk, even if you changed your voice, I still recognized you, Shen - Gardenia - Yi!” He gritted his teeth and called out my name, “When you stabbed me blind ten years ago, I carved your voice into my brain, memorizing it over and over again every day, not daring to forget it for a moment.”
“You killed my whole family, killed all the relatives and friends of my family, I was living on the street and became a beggar, but I met a man of the world. He took me as his disciple and repaired my bones so that I could meet you again. Didn't expect that, did you?”
I broke a few ribs and was spitting blood as he stepped on the soles of his feet, “Kill me or die as you wish, cut the crap!”
He laughed wryly and twisted my collar, coming up to me, “No, I'm not going to let you die easily.”
He pointed out my acupoints, at once I was like a hundred claws scratching my heart, ten thousand ants eating my bones, rolling on the ground in pain and itching.
He put his hands together and settled down as if he were a god.
He dispersed my martial arts skills, and it was my turn to become an invalid.
My hut was built deep in the mountains, just so no one would disturb it.
He stayed in my home.
As he tortured me, he asked, “Shen Jasmine Yi, you killed all nine of my clans, but only left me behind? Why? Why did you leave me alone to suffer in the world? How can there be such an evil woman like you in the world?”
I sneered, “No, I'm not the most vicious person in the world, don't you still have that animal father of yours?”
He became furious and pinched my jaw, “Don't insult your late father!”
“And you, young master, a monk can be so cruel, you are indeed the son of that beast! An angry man who does not know what is good and what is not good, who does not look at sin and happiness, who does not know what is good and what is bad, and who does not remember himself, will fall into an evil path.”
“Shut up!” With a slight force of his hand, he dislodged me from my jaws.
I could not speak, but my eyes were full of mockery.
My words pricked his most sensitive nerve; he was a monk, but his head was now stuffed with angry thoughts. A person filled with anger or resentment cannot recognize what is good or what is not good.
With the three poisons of anger, greed, and dementia wrapped around him, he will eventually fall into the hungry ghost path.
He ended up going off the deep end that night.
But I wasn't much better.
Anyway, with all the three poisons, he simply broke his color precepts.
Monks are much more terrifying than emperors and the like.
I fainted a few times and woke up the next night.
While we were eating, I secretly hid a chopstick and sharpened it.
When he went off the deep end again and wanted me, I raised that chopstick high from behind and aimed it at his neck.
Unfortunately, before I could stab it in, he killed me with a slap.
When he died, he was still in the state of being possessed, and he hugged my corpse with a mournful cry in his throat, “I forbid you to die, if you die so easily, what will I pay back with the lives of my entire clan?”
Fool, a person is dead when he dies, he can't come back to life with anything.
Except for you and me, a special case in this world.
6
The fifth time I was reborn, I sought out the best medicine to make him lose his memory.
But ten years later, the medicine failed, and he came as promised.
The sixth ...... ninety-ninth rebirth.
I couldn't escape the ending of being abused by Jiang Jinnian every time.
I was indignant and hated the unfairness of heaven.
The God Beyond the Heavens taunted, “When mole crickets think, God laughs.”
“You think you planned every extermination, but in fact it was all a plot written by me. You're just a puppet on strings.”
On my hundredth rebirth, I decided to play a seizure.
This time, I was reborn earlier, and I adjusted my plan of revenge by having my senior brothers exterminate my enemy's entire family for me.
I specifically instructed my senior brothers not to kill the child hiding in the water tank.
The senior brothers followed my instructions and killed all the members of the enemy's family, only sparing Jiang Jinnian.
He crawled out of the water tank and tried to defect to his own relatives.
But I had already killed all the relatives and friends he could go to in advance.
He knelt by the grass of the grave a few inches high and bawled his eyes out.
He finally realized that there was no one in the world he could rely on.
The proud nobleman at the beginning, turned into the lowest beggar, for a mouthful of food, lowly begging.
I secretly followed him for a year.
This day, he managed to beg for a steamed bun.
Snow-white steamed buns, fragrant and soft, still smoking hot, how long has he not eaten such a good thing.
He was full of joy, his black paw grasped the steamed bun just about to gnaw down, but was kicked over by the beggars next to him.
The beggars stomped the steamed buns and smashed the small bowl that Jiang Jinnian had begged for food.
They did not allow Jiang Jinnian to beg for food in his own territory.
The beggars tore his clothes, punched and kicked him, and beat him black and blue.
In the end, Jiang Jinnian was thrown into a shabby alley.
In the cold winter months, he was unclothed and his face was covered with blood.
He tilted his head and looked up at the sky, which was sprinkled with snow.
The snowflakes fell into his eyes and melted into a teardrop that rolled down his face.
He closed his eyes in pain, and his mouth mumbled softly as if he was calling for his mother.
Epilepsy? Painful? Pitiful?
I thought of my own family members who had died tragically, and the hundred times I had been abused.
These experiences had made my heart cold and hard.
I walked slowly over to him, unwrapped the cloak from my body, and covered him.
The cloak with body heat brought him a touch of warmth in the cold winter.
I stuffed a steamed bun in his hand, hot, fragrant and soft, white as snow.
He looked at me and his eyes became redder.
I said to him, “Son, eat, you'll have strength afterward.”
With tears in his eyes, he couldn't wait to grab the steamed buns and devour them, choking and turning red.
I carried him on my back and walked out of the alley.
Behind us, there were worldly men treading through the snow.
If I hadn't saved Jiang Jinnian, it would have been him.
Jiang Jinnian was the male lead, he couldn't die, and there would have been a great chance arranged for him by the God of the Outer Heavens.
And I've chosen to sever the shackles he's placed on us.
I know that darkness can't dispel darkness, only light can do it; hatred can't dispel hatred, only love can do it.
I want to raise Jiang Jinnian, give him warmth, give him love, teach him kindness, persuade him to let go.
7
I found a doctor for Jiang Jinnian.
I brought him back to the inn and asked the store assistant to boil several large buckets of water, and he had to take four baths before he could scrub his skin clean.
The store assistant poured out the lice-filled bath water with a look of disgust.
His hair was so knotted that it was unusable, so I took out a knife and shaved it off.
He looked at me in fascination and asked, “Are you a fairy sent down from heaven?”
I smiled, “Kid, my name is Shen Gardenia Yi, just an ordinary person. You can call me an aunt.”
After recuperating in the city for a month or so, I brought him to a small village where I bought a ramshackle little courtyard.
After a year of living on the streets, he hadn't grown much in height, and his yellow face and shaved head made him look even thinner.
He entered timidly, somewhat at a loss for words.
I pointed to a hut and said he would live there from now on.
Then I went to the kitchen and made him pancakes, frying them on both sides with a little extra lard and sprinkling a handful of green onions on top.
When I pushed the pancake in front of him, he hesitated, took a bite and burst into tears.
I asked him what was wrong.
He knelt down and said, “I'm just an orphan with no one to depend on, but auntie treats me so well, I will definitely repay auntie when I grow up.”
I thought to myself, “I'll be thankful if you don't abuse me to death.
I helped him up and said, “Hurry up and eat the cake, or it will get cold.”
After saying that, I went into my room to make his bed.
When I woke up the next day, I heard movement outside.
Jiang Jinnian had gotten up early, his small body helping me chop wood in the yard.
It was mid-winter, almost the end of the year, and it was freezing outside.
His ears were red from the cold, and his fingers were stiff.
I went over to him and took away the woodchipper from him, “I don't need a child like you to chop wood just yet.”
“Auntie is a girl, and chopping wood is a boy's job. I said I would repay you well, I will be very diligent.”
I took his frostbitten hand into the house and put medicine on his frostbite.
“Wait until you get your hands full of frostbite healed.”
His eyes reddened again, he used to have maids and servants to serve him, and he was so pampered that his hands did not have any calluses when he practiced writing and painting.
But now his fingers are like radishes, swollen and pus-filled.
He choked, “Auntie, what have I done wrong? Heaven wants to punish me like this?”
I sighed and gently wiped away his tears.
8
Jiang Jinnian regarded me as a lifesaver.
He was careful to please me, afraid of upsetting me and ending up on the streets again.
In front of him, I asked a neighbor's sister for five eggs on credit.
In the evening, I cooked for him and added extra eggs to the meal.
He smothered his rice, didn't dare to eat more vegetables, just a few chopsticks of vegetables, ate the last grain of rice, and lied that he was full.
As a young boy, he was very bad at lying. I saw right through it, but didn't say anything.
He went back to his bed and it wasn't long before his stomach began to ache with hunger.
He rolled around, memorizing verses, trying to distract himself.
I carried an oil lamp and pushed open his door.
He sat up from the bed, his forehead aching with a sheen of sweat.
I sat down at the foot of the bed and held out two fragrant egg pancakes.
“Eat.”
He turned red and stammered, “Auntie, I'm not hungry, I actually eat very, very little, really.”
“Auntie is not stupid. You're so hungry that your stomach hurts, aren't you?”
He hurriedly defended, “I'm used to wandering outside, in fact, it doesn't hurt after being hungry for a while. It really doesn't matter!”
I laughed and shoved the egg pancake into his hand, “Someone once told me that the secret to happiness is not letting yourself go hungry. If you want to be happy, you are never allowed to go hungry on purpose again. Don't worry, you can't eat me. You're growing up, you won't grow tall if you eat too little every day!”
There were tears glistening in his eyes again.
I rubbed his head and said, “You don't have to be so cautious in front of me. Since I adopted you, I will keep you unless you don't want me ......”
He was busy holding my hand and said, “How could Nian'er not want his aunt?”
I silently thought in my heart: it's good that you remember.
Because, his chance came soon.
9
As winter turned to spring, Jiang Jinnian's injuries healed, his hair grew out, and he grew taller.
On this day, a monk came to the door of the house.
I happen to be not at home, Jiang Jinnian gave him a cake.
The monk, who had an ordinary appearance, was a master of the world's highest method.
He touched Jiang Jinnian's hand and praised him as a rare martial arts prodigy and wanted to take him as a disciple.
Jiang Jinnian thought he was a liar and wanted to send him away.
However, Master Fa Xian showed him his unpredictable martial arts skills and said that he had to take Jiang Jin Nian as his disciple.
Jiang Jinnian was moved.
In the evening, Jiang Jinnian made hot water early and brought it to my room, kneeling down to wash my feet.
I could see his mind and said, “Say, what's the matter?”
He hung his head and said to me with determination, “Auntie, Nian'er wants to learn martial arts from Master Fa Xian.”
I sighed, “The murderer who killed your whole family has too much power behind him, even if you learn martial arts, what can you do with just one person? It's just an ant trying to shake a big tree and giving away your head for nothing. Auntie teaches you to let go and live well, which is what your family wants to see most.”
He kowtowed heavily, his eyes resolute, ''I know Auntie wants to protect me, but in the vast earthly world, a man has something to do and something not to do. I was hiding in the water tank, watching my parents being slaughtered, my younger siblings being cut off at the waist, and even my boy servant was not spared. My eyes are full of blood. I close my eyes and I think of that day. Auntie, I can't do let go. I want to learn martial arts and then avenge my family.”
I knew I couldn't persuade him with words alone, so I agreed to let him learn from a master.
But I had one request, let him stay for seven more days.
Jiang Jinnian was delighted and agreed with Fa Xian to meet him in town in seven days.
In the next few days, I stayed up all day and night sewing clothes for him, saying that the wind was cold in the mountains and that I was afraid he would lack clothes.
I didn't know how to make clothes, I just made them for him.
I paid a tailor in the village to help me make five pieces of clothes.
During the day, I made a lot of biscuits to make dry food for him to take with him on the road.
Jiang Jinnian was both guilty and moved.
On the sixth day, the flour jar by the stove was at the bottom, so I sent him to the village to buy some back.
With a few coins in his pocket, he walked alone to the village entrance.
Under the big acacia tree at the entrance of the village, a mysterious man in black stood quietly in the dappled shadows of the trees, his eyes as sharp as a falcon, penetrating a bit of shadowy.
He rubbed shoulders with the man in black, and a chill could not help but arise in his heart.
The man in black twisted his head slightly and seemed to cast a glance at him, then turned away and disappeared in the morning mist.
Jiang Jinnian was apprehensive, hurriedly bought flour, then hurriedly returned.
When he arrived at the door of his house, he found that the gate of the small courtyard was locked.
He tapped the gate and said, “Auntie, why did you lock the gate?”
My voice came through the door with determination, “I've thought it over, I'll let you go and learn martial arts, go, go now.”
He rapped heavily on the door again, his voice carrying a hint of anxiety, “Auntie, what's wrong with you?”
I only saw a bag thrown out from within the short courtyard wall, containing a few pieces of freshly sewn clothing and some dried food, the traveling bag I had prepared for him.
My voice was impatient and sharp: ''Jiang Jinnian, get lost, I didn't want to support you a long time ago!''
No matter how much he begged, I never opened the door.
The knocking on the door gradually disappeared, replaced by the sound of footsteps traveling away.
I lay in the courtyard, looking up at the blue sky, with a mess beside me.
The wound on my arm was oozing blood, and on my body, was the heavy body of that man in black.
With my remaining light, I caught a glimpse of Jiang Jinnian's figure appearing on the wall.
In a loud voice, I said to the man in black, “You promised me that if I let you take my life, you would spare him. Now, you can do it.”
The man in black's hand was like an iron clamp around my throat, my face flushed red, but I had no intention of struggling.
Right at this moment, Jiang Jinnian's figure tumbled into the courtyard, and a bag of flour was violently thrown at the black-clothed man, the dust flew up and obscured his vision.
He picked up the firewood knife in the courtyard and recklessly slashed at the man in black.
I took the opportunity to break free, kicked the man in black away, picked up the dagger on the ground, and stabbed him in the chest.
The man in black, seriously injured, was unable to respond to the battle and only fled.
Jiang Jinnian knelt beside me, trembling, “Auntie, Auntie!”
I forced myself to endure the severe pain and gasped sharply, ''Silly child, why did you come back? Quickly, follow Master Fa Xian and leave, never come back.''
Jiang Jinnian held my hand tightly, “Auntie, tell me, what happened?”
10
I used to have a very happy family.
My family ran a dart board, and my father was a dart master.
My mother was kind and virtuous, my elder brother was chivalrous, and my younger brother was smart and clever.
Although I am a daughter, but especially naughty, love to make ghosts and monkeys, everywhere in trouble.
My mother was so worried that I would not be able to get married in the future, saying that women should be quiet and beautiful.
My father, however, didn't think so, saying that our daughter was so beautiful that she wouldn't worry about not being able to get married.
My elder brother laughed and knocked me on the head and said, “If Ah Gardenia can't get married, I'll raise her for the rest of her life.”
Mother glared at them, saying they favored me too much, and then painfully put medicine on my scuffed skin.
Father saw that I liked to dance with guns and sticks, so he simply gave me a master to learn the art.
I have some spirit in my body, after learning for seven or eight years, surprisingly even father and elder brother are not my opponent.
Young and wild, I went to challenge the top assassin of the House of Ten Thousand Flowers and was beaten until my ribs were broken.
Father hurriedly sent me to Medicine King Valley, where I recuperated for a little over half a year.
But no one would have thought that something had happened to my family during this period.
My father had shipped a dart, and there was a pamphlet hidden in the dart car, which contained the Crown Prince's ulterior motive.
The Crown Prince's men hijacked the dart and hacked my father to death on the way.
But the booklet was lost. In order to find the booklet, Taifu's men bloodied my house, and my mother, elder brother, younger brother, and the brothers of the dart board, none of them survived.
When I got the news and rushed back home, I only saw my mother unarmed, cut off at the waist, and the blood underneath her body was already dry and stinking.
I could no longer be held tenderly in my mother's arms and listen to her sing those little songs.
My elder brother was hanging from a tree with a branch running through his torso, and he died in anger.
How could he die such an ugly death for someone who loved beauty so much?
My brother, on the other hand, was boiled alive.
I could no longer hear him softly calling me 'Sister' and distributing the stolen candy figures for me to eat.
In order to force my mother to reveal the whereabouts of the booklet, those killers tortured my elder brother, cooked my brother alive and insulted my mother.
My mother didn't know the whereabouts of the pamphlet, and she was finally killed by the waist.
I knelt on the ground, a beastly hiss escaping from my throat.
I wanted to dig a pit to bury their corpses, but I didn't realize that Tai Fu's men were still ambushing the dart board.
I escaped with nine deaths and looked at the fire behind me.
My home was destroyed, completely and utterly.
To say that Jiang Jinnian's year of wandering was bitter, but I was ten million times more bitter than him.
I endured the pain of my family's destruction while escaping Tai Fu's countless chases.
In the end, desperate, I defected to the House of Ten Thousand Flowers.
The Master of the Ten Thousand Flowers House covered his face with his fan and asked me with a smile, “What's in it for me if I take you in?”
I said expressionlessly, “I will become the most powerful sword of the Ten Thousand Flowers House.”
I did what I said I would do, killing people over the years and becoming the toughest assassin in Ten Thousand Flowers House.
I have one top priority in my mind, and that is to kill Tai Fu's entire family.
If I were reborn a hundred times, I'd kill his whole family too.
I'm not an ant that can't think.
I thought about it, if I didn't kill Tai Fu's entire family, Jiang Jinnian wouldn't seek revenge on me, and I wouldn't have been abused.
The cycle might have ended.
But there's no way I can't take revenge.
God said that this world was fake, that my parents and brothers were fake, that everything was a story he created.
He was wrong!
Feelings can't be fake!
Love will not be fake!
11
Looking into Jiang Jinnian's innocent eyes, I gently tell my story.
Of course I wouldn't tell him the real story.
I half-truths and half-falsehoods, picking out some key points.
I told him about the tragic deaths of my family, and about the pain I felt when I was on the run from the killers.
I held my father's sword in my hands and thought of revenge all the time.
I have traveled across the boundless wilderness and over countless mountains in search of the enemy who hides behind the curtain.
I spent the best years of my life taking revenge, but in the end I still don't know who the real culprit is.
Later, I turned my back and pretended to wipe away non-existent tears, “Seeing you lying in the alley, I remembered myself once. The killer has set his sights on me again, this village can't be lived in. You leave immediately after Master Fa Xian, don't be dragged down by me.”
Jiang Jinnian's voice had a hint of bitterness in it, “Auntie left the village, where are you going?”
''The sky and the earth are vast, there is naturally a place for me to go.'' I replied softly, my tone revealing a sense of helplessness, ''But with this goodbye, it is possible that we will not see each other in this life! Although our time together was short, it is a precious memory in my life. I can't keep you by my side, I can only pray that your future path will be wide and smooth, with smooth sailing.''
“The green luan flew away to the west in a vein, the sea is wide and the sky is high and I don't know where it is.” I chanted in a low voice, a sad expression on my face.
Jiang Jinnian's brows were tightly locked, hearing the words, “We will not meet in this life,” his heart felt as if it had been slashed by a sharp blade, and the pain was excruciating.
I gently patted the bloodstained bag and said anxiously, “It's too late, you should go now!”
I put him on the carriage to town.
The wheels rolled and bumped along.
He remembered me putting on a cloak for him in the snow and handing him a steamed bun.
He thought of me stopping him from chopping wood and carefully tending to the frostbite on his hands.
He remembered the egg pancake I quietly slipped him when he was starving.
He recalled the image of me being choked by the man in black and almost suffocated.
The carriage suddenly lurched and the cakes in the baggage scattered all over the place.
Jiang Chennian shouted, called the carriage to a halt, and ran frantically back to the courtyard, clutching the small, bloodied bundle.
However, the courtyard was empty and I had disappeared.
Like a madman, he called out my name in every room, searching for me.
Unable to find me, he rushed out of the courtyard again and searched everywhere.
Just when he was in despair, he turned around and saw me standing quietly in front of him with my bag on my back and blood still seeping from my simply bandaged arm.
He jumped into my arms and burst into tears, “Auntie, Nian'er won't leave. Wherever Auntie goes, Nian'er will go!”
“You don't regret it?”
“Never regret it!”
I smiled faintly, everything I did was for this moment.
On Fa Xian's side I had long ago sent a letter to disappoint him.
12
I brought Jiang Jinnian with me for most of the year and finally found a new place to settle down.
After settling down, I launched the second phase of my plan.
Let him study? Impossible, it wouldn't be good if he passed the examination and gained power.
Let him practice martial arts? Even more impossible.
I plopped down two acres of barren land - and taught him to farm.
He never cried out for pain and tiredness, facing the yellow soil, his back to the sky, and solidly followed me for five years of farming.
But he didn't turn into a black and dirt farmer.
On the contrary, Jiang Jinnian grew more and more handsome as he entered puberty, and the long hours of labor made his skin take on a healthy honey color, and his height increased rapidly.
He became the most popular young man in the village.
The girls often talked about him, praising him for being handsome, warm-hearted, and kind.
He was what they called the perfect young man.
Cuihua, the daughter of the lady next door, especially likes to send vegetables to my house, and every time she steals a glance at Jiang Jinnian with a red face.
I intend to set them up.
When he finds a wife, has a child, and lives out his life in peace, that will be the ideal outcome. I will be able to leave by then.
It was the Tanabata Festival, there was an event in the village, I asked Jiang Jinnian to wait for me at the bridge.
But I arranged for Cuihua to go to him, hoping that the two of them would see eye to eye.
The moon was over the willow, and people were about to meet after dusk.
Not long after, Jia